Hey everyone. It's been a while, huh? I know I'm just writing and not standing before you face to face, but I feel kind of awkward, like I'm just running into you after a long time apart. Maybe it's because I have nothing positive to tell you all and I'm sort of ashamed of myself. It's the middle of March, nearly 3 months into my journey out of sahmbiedom, and here I am, feeling like I've sunk deeper than ever. I feel depressed, down, blue, uninspired, unmotivated, my house is a mess, I'm a mess. I promised I'd be honest and real with you on this journey and there it is. The truth. I'm failing. A lot of it has to do with extenuating circumstances from the past that keep plaguing my mind, which has been literally debilitating. So here I am...zombie mom...again.
I don't have much more to say. But I will do a better job at chronicling these feelings, ok? Not keeping my promise to blog about this journey doesn't serve me, and really just makes me feel even worse...like a failure. At the end of this year, if nothing has changed, at least I can say I've told the story.
About Me
- Angie
- United States
- Hi, my name is Angie and I am a wife of 13 years to a wonderful man and mother to one darling baby girl. I am a Christian, a singer (hope to sing professionally one day), a people person and a girly girl. I enjoy blogging, reading, decorating my house, cooking, eating a good meal and watching a good movie with my man. I'm very far from perfect and not even close to the person I want or know I can be. I hope writing this blog, and getting honest about those things will help me to change that.
6 comments:
{{{Hugs}}} to you!
Enjoy each day-or find one thing that can make you smile...You will make it through-we can be the hardest critics of ourselves as women...
I am sorry my dear! Change can be a hard thing, thoughts from our past can plague us, but the thought about tomorrow being a new day can still ring true. I say...go with those good thoughts and feelings you had at the beginning of the year, and feed off that. The mind is a powerful thing...so let it lift you up. Hugs...and thanks for keeping it real. We are still here for you!
You are not a failure. This blog is intended to help you; do not worry about disappointing other people. You do what you need to do for yourself and your family. You are a great mom and are accomplishing more than you realize.
Don't be discouraged girlie! Chin up! We don't all succeed the first time we try things...some of us must work a little harder.
As for the debilitating circumstance, when I'm facing something that seems to hold the focus of my mind, I try to quote the verse Isaiah 26:3. You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.
Praying for you!
(((Angie)))
I am glad to "see" you again.
Praying for you, Angie. Don't give up!
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